this past few days i have been feelin soooooooo emotional .
maybe it was bcause when ting called me ..
she scolded me coward and whatever stuff .
and said that i dun dare fight for myself .
yes .. mayb i dun dare to fight fo myself ..
i feel really useless after she called me that .
this past few night whenever i recalled what she said ..
i keep cryin every night .
you guys might think im useless right .
to keep cryin n cryin ..
but i seriously dk what to do other than cryin ..
and my friendship is in a mess ..
but i cant really said that is in a mess though .
thanks to somebody .
if you aint exist ..
at least my prob will like cut down into half .
in the past ..
she will always talk to me and help me with my prob ..
and now there is you ..
she dun even really bothers bout me anymore .
all she only cares is you ...
nowdays , whenever i talk bout my prob wit her ..
she will always make me feel even worse ..
i talk bout my situation in class and she told me ..
shouldnt i get used to it ??
whatthefuck ..
when she told me that ..
i totally broke down and cried ..
i feel really sad and she like addin salt to my wound .
now she had this guy and she total forgot bout my existence .
ysterday i wanted to say hi to her in the corridor .
she totally didnt saw me and continue foolin around with that guy n classmate .
i was wonderin ..
if she forget bout my existence or im just bein petty ?
FML
i hate my life totally ...
i hate myself ..
i hate everything bout me ...

bertram told me just to focus on my studies and ignore everything ..

i just cant ..

ya guys knw what ..

i only pass one subject so far ..

that is maths ...

as you can see , which my life like that ..

i cant focus on my studys ..

thanks life ...

you really fucked me hard this time round...